Young and Restless

Young and Restless

Strange asana practice today. Got up, lit some incense, meditated, did pranayama, and chanted....ya know the usual...then I got super nervous. Why? I don't know? I was shaking in all my poses. I wanted to stop but kept going with it. One breath at a time....I am very glad its over. Still a bit on edge. (Other yogi's please respond non yogi's stop rolling your eyes)

Anywho last night my mom and I had a real grown up conversation. It centered around me being too sensitive. I wonder where I got that quality cuz niehter of my parents are overly sensitive...I wish I could take a pill or something to get rid of it. I guess the first step is realizing knowing that I have this little problem and not responding right away but taking a step back to analyze the situation.....I know I'll call my friend Ms. Cleo for advice she always is willing to listen...but only when I have a valid credit card...wonder why?

So wanna know something funny...I am very restless, I fell like I am at a hold with my life...I wanna do this, wanna do that, but I am in this space between something happening and nothing happening and its killing me. I wanna achieve my goals but i guess I just gotta wait. Wait for the Jiva TT to start, wait to start grad school, wait to start traveling. Guess I should just enjoy my last says in ATL. Lately my idea of what I wanna do in grad school has changed sooo much. I do like NICU, and think I would be an awsome NICU NP but lately I have realized just how much I HATE working in hospitals. I love taking care of babies, helping parents bond with there tiny kin members but I ABSOLUTELY HATE HOSPITAL SHIT. Maybe being a traveler will be better cuz I wont have to get involved in anything, all they will expect me to do is take care of my babies and cash my pay in. Oh well....There is only so much you can learn in one place.

The idea of being a Psych NP is very appealing to me. I remember in school my Psych teachers told me how much of a natural I was at it and wanted to help me nurture that talent. Maybe I should take them up on that...I love the crazies :O) Anywho I am going to go work out...maybe that will help me calm down.

PS Jessica your new song sucks and I cant get it out of my head...youll make a million dollars off that catchy peice of shit song...and I am back to my loving spot of kindness