NNP is the way for me

NNP

I feel like I am betraying my profession by saying this yet I must speak (or type) whats on my mind. I have to get out of nursing. I must. I have to leave the bed side and move beyond. I gotta go to NNP school. I look at other NNP's and MD's planning out care I get insanely jealous. I just wanna interrupt and talk about the latest study concerning canadian fungal sepsis or trisomy 21 developmental concerns - but alas I am just the RN so I go back to suctioning endotracheal tubes, drawing labs and administering blood.

I don't mean to down play nurses - I truly believe that nurses are the backbone of the heath care system. When orders are wrong it's nurses who catch it, when some one needs a shoulder to cry on often my scrubs become tissue for the emotionally disturbed and when people cant understand the doctors medical slang often I am used as an interpreter.

So whats my gruff? I just wanna know more. I wanna do more. In short I want more responsibility. I want no I NEED to go to graduate school. hmmm me a NNP. I like the idea of me going to the deliveries, interpreting the blood gasses, changing vent setting, determining viability and calling codes. But I guess I have to wait....wait for the date that I can turn in my application to NNP school. I was thinking of putting smiley faces all over my curriculum vitae ya know to help my chances :O)

GURRRRR wanna go back to school
GURRRRR wanna change my name badge from RN to NNP department of neonatology

oh well guess I should enjoy my place in life now....24 is really too young to be the most senior person in the NICU no matter how many dopamine drips I've started.